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Ever since I was a kid, I have been bullied, threatened, and abused by other kids at school and out of school. At age 7 I was molested by my babysitter's 13 year old son. Practically all my life I was told that I was worth nothing. That nobody cared for me. That I was a pitiful annoying waste of space. My mom was always working, and my dad (who was more or less out of the picture once I turned 10) is mentally fucked up. I never really had anyone to turn to, and when I had a problem, I always kept it inside, not talking to anybody, and (from what I'm told since I hardly remember anything from my childhood) would always act out in strange ways, making weird noises in class, or doing something random just to call attention to myself; which in turn would always trigger the same negativity that I hated. I didn't understand it. Other kids were cruel to me. They'd always do something to me, like put glue in my chair in class, pass me by when they went to sit down and whisper things like "I'm going to get you at recess."; and when I'd tell my teacher about these things, she would always tell me to stop making things up and to sit back down in my chair. I hated it. I hated life.

I moved to the bottom of Texas when I was 16. I thought things were going to be different. I thought things were going to turn out better. I was wrong. It was a new environment, but the people were the same, only now they were Mexican. I'd still get treated like shit and called nasty things, only this time in Spanish. A few times I was told to go back to where I came from, that a "Nazi" didn't belong here. That if I didn't go back then they would kill me. Every day getting worse and worse verbal threats from these people that I had done nothing to. Twice I had planned to kill myself. Twice I was "saved" when I heard a song, a stupid song, from a band that I like. I learned from these two songs that I shouldn't care what other people thought of me, and what will happen will happen whether I'm happy or sad. There were things to wake up for (quote from the song.

I tried not letting other people get to me, always smiling and being nice and helpful to others, but inside it still did. I no longer wanted to kill myself, but I started playing videos games and eating to solve my problems. I'd always been a sort of husky guy, but when I started doing this and I got on a scale I was shocked and ashamed to find that I weighed 305 lbs. I couldn't stop eating. It was a habit, one that was hard to break. I stopped weighing myself for fear of seeing a number higher than that.

I graduated with average grades. I was getting all As on tests, even finishing a final exam in 12 minutes with a 97% on it. But because I wouldn't do my homework I got an average of a 2.8 GPA. Ended up getting a job at McDonald's. Had it for 5 years then got fired back in April. Shenanigans. Been trying to find a job ever since with no luck. On Halloween of this year I went to a friend's house to see if his mom could help with the job hunt and saw that they had a scale in their kitchen and figured "what the hell". Stepped on it and to my surprise I weighed 220 lbs. I was ecstatic. I'd been so ashamed of my body and now here I was almost 100 pounds lighter than I thought I was. The look on my face was of pure astonishment. I couldn't believe it. Almost instantaneously a smile formed on my face and I suddenly started looking at the world in a positive light. My confidence shot through the roof. From that point on, I was happy.

I'm no longer the sad boy I used to be. Now I am positive and have high hopes for the future. Someday things will get better for me. Someday I'll be able to accomplish the goals that I want to do. Someday, I will be the person I always thought I could be. And I will be happy.

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Chris AKA RedXIII400
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Well, first off I'm a really shy person. It takes a while to warm up to someone new in my life but I'm a pretty nice guy.

If you're having a problem and don't know what to do, then I'm the person to talk to. I'm very good at helping people with their problems, so if you have anything that you need help with, i.e. relationship issues, problems at home, etc. give me a message and I'll try to help you through it.

I'm into photography. I'd like to be a photographer one day. Whether it be scenery or of people I like to take pictures but unfortunately lack the funds to acquire a good camera. So for now All I have is my camera-phone :(

I'm really into video games, and I spend a lot of my time either on them or reading about them. My favorite games are RPGs.

If there is anything else you would like to know about me, then please, send me a message. I will answer everything you would like to know about.
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:iconizaki-sama:
Izaki-sama Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2012
Elephant! :-)
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2012
Tim, no.
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Izaki-sama Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2013
Who is this Tim you speak of? I am Izaki
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
IMPOSTER!
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SkywingKnights Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you so very much for the :+fav: on my friend and I's Elric brothers cosplays! We're so glad that you liked them! :tighthug:
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TemeSasu Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012
Thank you for the fav~ ^^ :heart: :la:
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
^_^
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TemeSasu Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012
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Would you do a favour for me? owo Can you liking this picture? :meow: It's a competition, it means a lot to me. *---* I would really appreciate~ :la: :happybounce: :heart:
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Talybean Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks bunch for the :+fav:! =D
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TixieLix Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the Cammy/Chun fave ^^
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012
'Tis very good :D
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TixieLix Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks again for the watch! Appreciate the support ^^
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2012
You do very good work ^_^
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ObstinateMelon Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2012
Thanks for the watch!
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2012
Keep up the awesome work!
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lissomniac Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for the many faves :3
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chibinis-chan Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks so much for faving :heart: It's highly appreciated ^^
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sing-enrique-365 Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2012  Student General Artist
thanks for faving!! :D
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2012
I only fave what's amazing ^_^
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CristianaLeone Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2012

Hi!!
Thank you so much for faving me!! *v*
Much appreciated!!
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2012
'Twas a very good piece of work that I saw. ^_^
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Saigeryumurayami Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thnx for fave :D
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012
yw ^_^
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Saigeryumurayami Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the other faves too! :D
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RedXIII400 Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012
:p
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